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They said actions speak louder than words.

I have heard that actions speak louder than words.

So i had hoped subconsciously, you would know what i wanted,

 by what i did for you, with you, to you.

I was almost certain that we had this non verbal agreement, signed on the dotted line...

That we were for each other and there was no other who could, well, be the other.

 And yet...it seemed they lied, those who said actions speak louder than words.

It seems i was hearing wrong all along.

For if that were really the case, how could you have not heard?

all my desperate screams of wanting to be loved by you.

You couldn’t have ignored my loud declarations of love to you.

My actions were louder than my words and yet...

 i found myself in a situation where i was left feeling stupid for having trusted some saying i had heard and was almost certain it was working in my life.

But there was no verbal agreement, no contract ever signed.

I never told you what i wanted from you, so how can i hold you accountable?

You never did say you loved me nor did you ever promise to be mine.

My ambivalence has birthed my detriment

Your fiction desire of me has been my torment.

Maybe actions do speak louder than words

Or at least only because i say so...

So as you watch me walk slowly away from you,

Trust, that even this time, i hope you read much into this one action.

out of all of those which i had hoped were speaking for me,

let this be the one you listen to. 

Vuma D