CHANGE

I can’t say it was love at first sight.

No! Quite frankly there was no attraction to you whatsoever.

Yes, others seemed to like you, embrace you...

Oh the embraces you got! all but from me.

I actually found you quite irritating and unnecessary.

Nothing about you, to my life, was at all complimentary.

You pursued me fervently,

I ducked and meandered but you somehow managed to hit the bulls eye.

Forced into this game of moving darts with you...

I the moving board, you the very sharp dart and my life, the bulls eye.

Why? A question i found myself asking every time.

Questioning your existence in my life.

It wasn’t until time did what it does best...

Make everything known in its time,

Allow one to have retrospect.

So in hinds sight the little girl you were chasing down

Was running away from you, trying.

Trying to be big and grown, without you.

Trying to remain in the comfort she knew, had grown attached to.

And yet...

You always managed to catch up with me and hit your bulls eye.

I thank you for that, for you have always brought with you growth.

The very thing i lacked and needed.

You always seemed to be so vicious and cut throat,

Had no care in the world about whether or not you were loved by me,

Just came and left, having delivered your only package, GROWTH.

Geez talk about tough love!

I still can’t say it was love at first sight

But oh how i wish it was!

Then time wouldn’t have been wasted in the running,

But rather spent in the accepting...you.

You who refreshes, challenges, moulds.

You who is an occurrence for the greater good.

A gold medallist in what you do,

I simply admire your precision.

I think i have grown to like you

Your power though always inspires nothing but fear, of the unknown.

And i think that’s what it’s always been, fear.

Had me running away, not embracing, because, well, fear.

Fear of something i didn’t know, will never know.

Fear of something new!

Because in as much as we all love opening up Christmas gifts,

It’s always with anxiety and hope mostly

For the gift to be, not only new, but what we love too!

In my experience the former and latter have proved to be true.

So change, you’re the best damn Christmas gift a girl could ever ask for.

VUMA D